A love lost

I am sad, today, for today

I lost the love of a

Wonderful woman, a

Woman I believed,

Hoped, might create a

Life less ordinary

Together, a life of

Two powerful souls

Come together

Unapologetic in their

Truth, to themselves, to

Each other. She saw

Too little of the us

In me, 

Swamped in my self

And she is gone.

She is gone and it

Aches in my heart

Just as it churns in my

Belly, the bitter pill of

Becoming clear about how I

Want to live in myself

And not clear enough

About how we live together.

I miss her, already,

Her physicality, 

Her smiling face as I

Come to her door, brown

Eyes curved in delight,

Nose wrinkled, tousled

Hair, soft lipped kiss,

Beauty spot under her eye.

All of this I miss, but more so

Her spirit, her heart, her

Ability to challenge me

And hold me safe.

The power of her soul,

And our connection

Oft unspoken but always

There, now silent.

I guess, ultimately, the

Enormity of her soul was

Too big, too great to live

Amongst the life I want,

To share her hard wrought

Dream. And so it ended,

Perhaps predictably when you

See what was asked

Of us.

She is gone and I miss her,

The sadness a kind that,

I know, will wane in time,

That will release its hold over

Me, will become a way marker

In this life journey. But

For now, I mourn what

Was and, more bitter,

What might have become

As we grew, as we

Divined our destiny.

We now need to wait for

Another lifetime, another future

Existence for our souls to

Again cross. For us to, again,

Feel that jolt of recognition.

I am sad tonight, and

Likely tomorrow and the

Days thereafter. Some day

I won't, this I know, but
Am now.

At least I might now

Have sufficient pain

For decent poetry.